This has been one of the best journey yet. 2 months of ups and downs together with them. It was a privilege to even get to play such competition on a national level considering our experience. Despite not getting into the finals, the whole journey itself was an experience I truly enjoyed. To say I wasn't disappointed and sad with the results despite not having any expectations would be a lie. Maybe it's just not the right time yet for us. Seeing everyone's effort was heartwarming and I really believed that we could have made it through if not for certain setbacks. With that said, there are many people that I'm (and the rest of the girls, I believe) thankful and grateful for for helping us out throughout the journey. They might not have said or show it, but we certainly were aware of their good intention and effort somewhere along the process. Without them, we are nothing and would not have made it this far. It had been a challenging one, especially for the last two weeks. With the pressure getting to our head, it was mentally exhausting and physically; having to rush for night shifts after training. This withdrawal/ post-competition feels is the worst yet. It's only been two days and still can't get over the feeling. I've wanted to wait till it dies down to post this up but then again, the moment will past and it doesn't feel special anymore. It has been an emotional few days. Even so now, I get all teary thinking about it, hahah. The bittersweet feeling lingers now that we don't get to see each other everyday. This sadness is more towards What do I do now? rather feeling down that we didn't get through. Cause honestly, what do I do now? When will I come across the chance to play together and share the same stage with the,, especially with my favourite Palulus. So used to seeing them almost everyday, it feels empty and lost right now. No one will understand each other better than the four of us. The attachment level towards Nira and Dikir is at sky high level right now. Letting go or moving on definitely would not be easy. But I guess, that is what I have to do for now. Move on. When the time comes, we will get to play alongside each other again. And I'm looking forward till that day comes.