Tonight is one of those night where everything gets me to start thinking.
1. I don't know what exactly got me started but school is one of the reasons. I've got this strong urge to change course lately & I don't know how to bring up this matter to my parents. I don't know what made me choose this course in the first place. I don't know what the hell I'm doing in business school. Business stuff is not really my interest but the tourism part was what that got me interested and now it's totally different from what I expected. Honestly, it bores the shit out of me. It feels like I'm going to school just for the sake of it. I want to do something that I like without having to think of what it may bring me in the future. Fuck it, I want to enjoy my poly life.
2. Maybe, it's because it is the 23rd of the month already. It's been 3 month since Nenek left us. God, I miss her so bad. Just thinking about her gets me teary eyed. Gets me thinking how short life is & what I have been doing all my life and the time to come.
3. Or, maybe it is just the time. It's1.38am & I'm still up.
4. Or, just the confused mind of a seventeen year old still finding out what the hell she really wants. All the insecurities. It's time to escape from fiction to face reality. Cause when reality hits, it hits hard. It's time to face the real world. It's time to grow up.
Just feel the need to type all my thoughts out. Bear the all sappiness.