Wednesday, June 5, 2013

I wanted to wake up

I dreamt of people around me dying.

In the dream, you said you didn't have much time left.
In the dream, I knew you were dead but I couldn't see your face.
In the dream, I watched as you took your last breath but I couldn't see your face.
In the dream, I talked to you but you didn't respond.
In the dream, I watched as people took your lifeless body away.

I woke up sweating & ... crying.
Everything felt so real and that scares me.

Whilst dreaming, we think we are in reality.
I'm so relieved when I woke up. What if, next time I didn't wake up & it was all reality.

I know there will come a time when they will eventually leave, for real.
People live, people die. It's part of life.

I don't think I'll be ready to face it. Not yet.